Nekudas Habechira

Hebrew: נקודת הבחירה

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I believe that bechira is progressing, as the ramchal and my rosh yeshiva taught me. I felt it today. I was checking something about my filter. The easiest way for that was to type my once favored porn site address. I forgot that i was connected to unsafe network, and suddenly the logo popped on my screen. Few weeks ago it would have been a great nisayon for me. I would be tempted to look at the following pics, maybe even go for it, but now my first emergency reaction was to cover my screen and press the home button. Now im not saying that i became a saint all of a sudden, just that my reaction have changed. And even though the wolf is cunning and vicious and will always be knocking at my door, some of his older forms i will recognize and instinctively decline, and so my bechira point has changed. 44 days and counting. @Ftndrug