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| + | == See also == | ||
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| + | * Positive Vision Day 79 (You can change) | ||
| + | * Battle of the Generation Appendix A (The Yetzer Hara In Our Brain (Addendum to Chapter 10)) | ||
| + | * [[Perspectives on the Struggle]] | ||
| + | * [[Normalization]] | ||
| + | * [[Despair]] | ||
| + | * [[Shame]] | ||
| + | * [[Self Worth]] | ||
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| + | == Torah Sources == | ||
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| + | === Zos Brisi === | ||
| + | '''''The Battle Can Be Won''''' | ||
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| + | Despite [[The Challenge Before Moshiach|today’s challenges]], a ''ben Torah'' must know that it ''is'' possible to remain pure and holy. As ''Chazal'' teach: ''“One who seeks to purify himself will be granted Heavenly assistance.”''<ref>''Shabbos'' 104a.</ref> ''Avos D’Rav Nosson''<ref>Chapter 31.</ref> states that Hashem showed Adam HaRishon all future generations. Already at the time of Creation, the ''nisyonos'' of each generation and the way to overcome them were a reality. By overcoming our ''nisyonos'', we perfect ourselves and all of creation and bring the world closer to its ultimate ''tikkun'' with the coming of ''Mashiach.'' | ||
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| + | ''Chazal'' further teach that Hashem does not make excessive demands of us.<ref>''Avodah Zarah'' 3a.</ref> We are not given a ''nisayon'' that we cannot overcome. Hashem, the Source of all that is good, wants only to shower us with goodness, to help us succeed, to draw us close to Him. Any challenge that He presents to us is for our benefit, so that we may grow from our experience and climb the ladder of spiritual ascent. | ||
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| + | The Midrash<ref>''Bamidbar Rabbah'' 15:12.</ref> informs us that Hashem does not elevate someone to prominence until he is first tested. Avraham passed ten difficult tests; only then does the Torah say, ''“And Hashem blessed Avraham with everything.”''<ref>''Bereishis'' 24:1.</ref> Yitzchak was tested harassment by Avimelech, King of Pelishtim; only then does it say, ''“ ... and in that year he reaped a hundredfold; thus Hashem blessed him.”''<ref>Ibid. 26:12.</ref> Yaakov overcame the tests of Eisav, Lavan and Dinah; only then does it say, ''“Hashem appeared to Yaakov again when he came to Padan Aram, and He blessed him.”''<ref>Ibid. 35:9.</ref> | ||
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| + | And of course, Yosef was faced with the difficult test of being confronted by Potiphar’s wife. He languished in prison for twelve years but emerged as the leader of his land, the father of two ''Shevatim'', and earned for himself the title of Yosef HaTzaddik. The Midrash concludes with the verse ''“Hashem tests the tzaddik.”''<ref>''Tehillim'' 11:5.</ref> | ||
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| + | ''Nisyonos'', when successfully overcome, bring forth greatness. | ||
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| + | The Gaon states<ref>In his commentary to ''Tikkunei Zohar Page 310, ד<nowiki>''ה דכד ב''</nowiki>נ שליט על יצריה''</ref> unequivocally that every person has within himself the ability to overcome that forbidden desire with which he struggles the most. As Hashem told Kayin, ''“Yet you can rule over it [i.e., the yetzer hara].”''<sup><sup>[</sup></sup><ref>''Bereishis'' 4:7.</ref> It is within our ''bechirah'' (free will) to overcome this challenge. | ||
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| + | In fact, one’s ''tikkun hanefesh'', fulfilling his unique mission on earth, lies specifically in overcoming that which is his greatest ''yetzer hara''. Therefore, one should invest his greatest effort in overcoming that which he finds most difficult. | ||
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| + | === The Lubavitcher Rebbe === | ||
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| + | * "From my knowledge of such cases, the majority of boys, and a majority by far, overcome this problem when they know its seriousness and are guided accordingly. This is why they do not come to the doctor’s attention, while where restraint is removed it often becomes a medical problem" (The Lubavitcher Rebbe<ref>Letter to a therapist, see [[Chabad]].</ref>) | ||
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| + | * ב"ה, כ"א שבט, תשט"ז ... במענה על מכתבו מי"ד שבט, והתחלתו אשר בושת פניו כסתו וכו'. הנה מובן ופשוט שהתכלית בזה צריכה להיות שינוי עיקרי בהנוגע לפועל, ובמה שכותב שישנם ענינים שאינו יכול להנצל מהם כו' הרי כ'''יון שהבורא דורש זאת מאת כל אחד ואחד מבני ישראל, בודאי שעוד מקודם לזה ניתן לו הכחות הנדרשים למלאות הדרישה''', והוא הדין בנדון דידי', אלא שכמו בכל הענינים '''אין לדרוש שתהי' השתנות מן הקצה אל הקצה בשעתא חדא וברגעא חדא''', כי עבודת האדם היא מדרגא לדרגא וביגיעה מתאימה, ואזי מתקיימת הבטחת רז"ל, יגעת ומצאת. (חי"ב עמ' שז) | ||
| + | * במענה על מכתבו מיו"ד לחדש אייר, בו מבקש תיקון על וכו', ואופן איך להלחם נגד זה בעתיד, היאוש תוקף אותו וכו'. והנה מבואר בכמה מקומות אשר היאוש הוא אחד התחבולות והדרכים של היצר הרע להפיל את האדם ברשתו, ע"י ההסברה שכין שלא יהי' בידו לנצח היצה"ר, ח"ו, הרי אין תכלית ותועלת במלחמתו נגדו, ומובן שרעיון זה הוא אפיקורסות ר"ל היפך האמונה, אשר השי"ת הוא בוא כל העולם והאדם בכללו, ולית אתר פנוי' מני' ואמר לו בתורתו הק' בראתי יצה"ר בראתי לו תורה תבלין, אלא שכל האומר אין לי אלא תורה אפילו תורה אין לו, וכבר ידוע פסק רז"ל אשר ח"ו לא זכה, הרי ר"ל יכולה להעשות לו סם מיתה (יומא ע"ב ב), לכן מוכרחת התפלה לפני אדון כל שהיא בקשת צרכי האדם, והצלת נפשו עאכו"כ, וכדי שתהי' התפלה מקובלת, צריכה להיות בטהרה ובפירוש המלות עכ"פ, ומה טוב לעתים קרובות ותכופות בנתינת קודם [התפלה] איזה פרוטות לצדקה, וכדרז"ל עה"פ אני בצדק אחזה פניך, ויתנהג בכל הנ"ל ויאמר לאחר התפלה של שחרית בכל יום השיעור תהלים כפי שנחלק התהלים לימי החדש, וכשיעשה את כל זה - אף כי כמנהג ישראל צ"ל בלי נדר - '''אזי לאט לאט תקל עליו המלחמה ומעט מעט יגרש את היצה"ר מגבולו''', ומהנכון הי' שילמוד בעל פה מהתחלת פרק מ"א בספר התניא עד התיבות כעומד לפני המלך (שם דף נ"ו ריש עמוד ב), כן הי' מהנכון שיבדוק התפילין שלו. | ||
| + | * במענה למכתבו מיום ב', בו כותב אודות מצבו, ושכאילו אינו יכול להתגבר עליו, והתוצאות מזה, איך שיצא למשך זמן מכותלי הישיבה ואח"כ חזר לשם, ונמצא במצב יאוש וכו'. ומובן ששתי תמיהות בדבר: א) מהו הפלא על המצב, לאחרי שהודיעונו חז"ל, עבר כ' שנה וכו'. ב) כיון שהובטחנו לפום גמלא שיחנא ושבלתי ידח ממנו נדח, הרי בודאי '''שאפשר להתגבר על כל מצב שאינו מתאים לציווי תורתנו תורת חיים'''. | ||
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| + | == From the GYE Handbook == | ||
| + | '''Learning to love Hashem through this struggle''' | ||
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| + | No matter how much we have fallen, we must never view ourselves as “despised” by Hashem or imagine that Hashem is annoyed and frustrated with us. Instead, as we learn to give over our will to Hashem we will begin to feel that Hashem is truly our closest and most eternal friend. | ||
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| + | As we progress and mature, we begin to view our relationship with Hashem on a much more intimate level. We begin to perceive how the lust is trying to get in between “us and Hashem” and interfere with the greatest love that can possibly exist! | ||
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| + | '''Dealing with thoughts and fantasies''' | ||
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| + | Everyone has these fantasies. Some people more, some people less. We are human beings and not angels. ''Hakadosh Baruch Hu'' created the world in such a way that men and women are attracted to one another and, because of this, people get married, have children and populate the Earth. If it bothers you that you struggle with these thoughts, that is already something to be proud of. If we get down on ourselves about fantasies, we become sad, and the sadness brings even more fantasies, and this becomes a vicious cycle that is difficult to break away from. However, the moment we start to look at ourselves in a positive light, we will see that the fantasies will come much less often. | ||
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| + | The ''Ba’al Hatanya'' (Chapter 27, abridged) writes about those who subdue these bad thoughts:<blockquote>''The Zohar (p.128) extols the great satisfaction before Hashem when the sitra achra (the other side) is subdued here below. For then the glory of Hakadosh Baruch Hu rises above all, even more than is possible through any praise, and this ascent is greater than all else.'' | ||
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| + | ''Therefore, no person should feel depressed, even should he be engaged '''all his days''' in this conflict, for perhaps because of this he was created, and this is his service -- to constantly subjugate the sitra achra.''</blockquote>'''Don’t dwell on the past''' | ||
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| + | Although the spiritual damage we cause by acting out is very great, we must accept that Hashem brought us into this situation and that it is not all our fault. Let us never dwell on how it happened, or on past falls. This will cause us to feel down and lead to future falls. The ''Chidushei Harim'' (in ''Likutei Yehudah'') tells his followers never to look back, claiming that if we look back, we remain in the mud. Everyone has dirty laundry. We don’t have to be ashamed of our laundry, unless we let it pile up and never clean it. | ||
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| + | We must also realize that we didn’t always have free will in the past. This is clear from various Sefarim and in various places in Chazal. To quote one of the foremost ''baalei mussar'' of our times, Rav Shlomo Wolbe, [''zt"l'']: | ||
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| + | ''The great [Jewish] philosophers established bechira as the cornerstone for the whole Torah.... But from this resulted a common misperception among the masses; that all people actively choose their every act and every decision. This is a grievous error. (Alei Schur, Vol. 1, p. 156)'' | ||
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| + | What, then, is ''bechira''? To answer this question, Rav Wolbe refers us to Rav Eliyahu Dessler's "phenomenal essay on ''bechira”'' (''Michtav MeEliyahu'', Vol. 1, pp. 111-116). In this essay, Rav Dessler describes how the “''nekudas habechirah'' – the point of free choice” is different for different people and in different situations. He explains that ''bechira'' is not a theoretical concept that can be applied to any circumstance where a person can hypothetically choose between two options. Rather, it only applies to moral conflicts where the two opposing forces are of approximately equal strength, the person is aware of the internal conflict, and he makes a conscious decision in one direction. When a person does something over which he does not experience conscious conflict, or if the compelling force on one side is significantly stronger than the other, the fact that he is theoretically able to decide either way does '''not''' qualify his act as an expression of ''bechira''. | ||
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| + | ''“Ain Hakadosh Baruch Hu ba beterunya im habriyos – Hashem doesn’t come with complaints to his creations.”'' As the Pasuk says: ''“He created together all their hearts and understands all their deeds,”'' and he knows that almost all men stumble in this sin at some point in their youth. | ||
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| + | There’s a well known adage that if Hashem gave us a test, we must have the ability to overcome it as well. R’ Tzadok HaKoehn says though, (in ''Tzidkas Hatzadik'') that this is not as simple as it sounds. It is true that we all have free choice to do what Hashem expects of us in this world, over the course of our lifetimes. However, in the process of our journey, there are many times when a person is considered an ''onus''. | ||
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| + | After the sin of the golden calf, the ''Midrash'' says that Moshe said to Hashem, if a father gave his son gold and sat him down on the doorstep of a ''Beis Zonos'' – '''''“ma ya’aseh haben velo yecheta? - What can the son do and not sin?”''''' In other words, we find in Chazal that there are times when a person may not have full ''Bechira''. | ||
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| + | See also the ''Rambam Hilchos Issurei Biyah 1:8'' – ''“for the Yetzer and human nature forced her to want,”'' and see ''Tosofos'' in ''Sanhedrin 26b'' where they discuss how someone suspected of illicit relations may still be a Kosher witness, since it could be that his desires simply overpowered him. And see the Gemara in Brachos, 32b: ''“Asher Hari’osi”'' where ''Hakadosh Baruch Hu'' acknowledges to Eliyahu Hanavi that He was the one who had turned the Yidden’s heart away from him. | ||
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| + | The Steipler too, in regards to a specific behavior that someone had difficulty controlling, writes: “He is not a ''Ba’al Bechira'' now in this area, and the only thing he can (and should) do, are ''Tikkunim'' that will help him '''over time.'''” | ||
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| + | Once we understand that we didn’t always have free will in the past, we will prevent the guilt from dragging us down into a vicious cycle of despair and continued falls. And guilt can be even more dangerous than the falls. As they say: "It's not the one cookie you ate that broke the diet. The diet ended when you felt bad about that one cookie, and then went on to finish the entire BOX!” | ||
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| + | And even if we may have had some freedom of choice at the time we fell, it could be that we had '''very little'''. The sins we did are only judged according to the circumstances and the level of free will that we had at the time. Only Hashem knows if we could have done better or not. | ||
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| + | But when we talk about the '''present moment''', we can never know how much free will we have and we '''must always''' try our very best. | ||
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| + | '''Guilt vs. Shame''' | ||
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| + | It is important to understand the difference between ''charata'': healthy guilt & regret, as opposed to ''yiush'': shame & despair. | ||
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| + | To quote Rabbi Avraham J. Twerski:<blockquote>We generally use the words “shame” and guilt” interchangeably. One may say, “I am ashamed of what I did”, meaning “I feel guilty over what I did.” Technically, however, the two terms are different. Guilt is about what a person did, and it can be a constructive feeling in that it can lead one to Teshuvah, to take corrective action. Shame, however, is what one feels he '''''is'''''. In other words, guilt is “I '''''made''''' a mistake”, whereas shame is “I '''''am''''' a mistake”. If one feels that he is inherently flawed, that he is made of “bad stuff”, there is nothing he can do to change that. With guilt there is hope of improvement, but not with shame.</blockquote>Every person should feel he is a child of Hashem with a holy Neshama. Hashem doesn’t make defective goods. There is never room for despair or shame. However, healthy “guilt” is important. As the Nesivos Shalom writes in Parshas Noach, the guilty feelings we have are a gift from Hashem that come from the inherent good inside every Jew. Indeed, he writes, a Jew who does ''not'' have these feelings anymore, no longer has much hope. | ||
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| + | A person who gives in to the Yetzer Hara only because the Yetzer hara has tempted him strongly and he can't hold back, is still not "bad' in essence. With sincere Teshuvah, Hashem will forgive him. But if one doesn't feel guilt anymore, that means that the bad has taken him over totally and there is little hope. | ||
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| + | The Nesivos Shalom ends by saying that “guilt” is actually a Tikkun for every Jew to be able to break free of the bad. Even when one falls, they should make sure that the fall does not become part of their ''essence''. By continuing to hold on to Hashem and feeling guilty when we are far from Him, then even in the case of the worst sins ''chas veshalom'', we still have hope and will be forgiven. | ||
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| + | There’s a simple test we can do to know whether we are being motivated by healthy guilt/regret or by shame/despair. If we see that we want to get right back up and find ways to strengthen ourselves again, then it’s a sign that our “bad” feelings are those of healthy guilt and positive regret. If, however, we feel that we just want to give up, then it’s a sure sign that we are experiencing despair and shame, and we must quickly find a way out of these harmful feelings before they lead us to a vicious cycle of continued falls. | ||
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== From GYE Members == | == From GYE Members == | ||
| + | Thank You GYE! Thank G-d, this past week I completed the GYE 90-day journey. It's been an interesting process and before I share some of what's worked for me I'd like to take this opportunity to thank each and every one of you. Whether you realize it or not, you've all played a part in my success. Just knowing that this place exists, that despite the fact that the prevailing world view is that this behavior is acceptable - 'normal' even - and that despite the addiction and all that it entails, there are people who out of their extreme devotion to Hashem are fighting tooth and nail to break free and overcome this crippling illness, provides me with huge chizuk. Before I visited this website, I had almost deluded myself into thinking that "it's not so bad... I'm single, how could G-d possibly expect me to NOT do this?". I had virtually given up or given in. GYE was the slap in the face I so badly needed. So thank you! [https://guardyoureyes.com/articles/testimonials/item/mazal-tov-to-halevi-for-reaching-90-days-clean-and-joining-the-wall-of-hashem-s-honor?category_id=397 #Haleivi76] | ||
| + | ----To start I want to point out a few things that will give you a clearer perspective on these issues and some chizuk for going to the next level. | ||
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| + | 1) Hashem created desire. Not you. He gave it to us as a test, a charge to win our battles and reach greatness. Pretty much any desire you experience is normal. Everyone gets it and must fight through it. Never blame yourself for your impulses. All that matters is what you do with them. | ||
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| + | 2) Hashem wants to provide man with the opportunity to win his battles and truly accomplish. Challenges are only there to make us great! Succeeding despite the difficulty is the point of life! The harder it is, the greater it makes us. | ||
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| + | 3) We should not be harder on ourselves than our loving Father Who made the rules. If we mess up, we should give ourselves a pat on the back for working so hard and then plan how to get back on the right track. Then we should regret our mistake, do teshuva to clean it up, and move on. No matter what happens, we must remember that although our battles are tough they are also opportunities to succeed and reach greatness. | ||
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| + | 4) We must never forget that Hashem loves us despite our sins. No matter how badly we fall, Hashem still cares about us. He never gets angry with us, no matter how badly we sin. | ||
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| + | 5) When we stumble, we must remember that we sinned out of weakness, not rebellion. We might sometimes be overpowered by strong desires, but deep down, we want to be good. There will be times when we make mistakes. That is normal, because we are human. We must also be sure that our sins don’t destroy us by making us feel ashamed of ourselves. Instead, we must get back up, dust ourselves off, and continue to chase our aspirations. | ||
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| + | 6) A plan involving gradual change often is the best way to attain self-control. A person should start by focusing on one area of his battle against desire. He should firmly commit himself to keep a certain halacha or aspect of self-control. Alternatively, he can decide to exert self-control in one particular common situation. | ||
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| + | 7) It is important to stay motivated. One way to do this is to celebrate your successes. Take small steps toward change, and celebrate each time you get it right. Also, spend time thinking about the emotions you felt when you decided to change. Think about what you want to change, and exactly how you want to act when you face particular challenges. Then close your eyes and visualize yourself making those choices. | ||
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| + | 8) No matter how strong we become, we still need to work daily to stay alert and ready for the yetzer hara, who can strike at any moment. If we are unprepared, our feelings will instantly change, and we might even desire what we thought we would have no interest in. We cannot know exactly how the yetzer hara will make us feel. We must be ready so this does not happen. | ||
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| + | 9) When we are caught off guard, we instantly change and our battle against desire intensifies. But if we catch ourselves and remember ideas that grant us clarity, we can overcome this incredible challenge and achieve some of the greatest successes ever. | ||
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| + | 10) The yetzer hara is our biggest enemy. He works within our heads to destroy us before the battle even begins. By learning how to defuse his arguments, we will deal him a crushing blow in the most challenging and encompassing battle of all! | ||
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| + | [https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/347559-Am-I-going-to-suffer-for-the-rest-of-my-life#347566 @DavidT] | ||
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== References == | == References == | ||
Latest revision as of 12:32, 2 December 2020
See also
- Positive Vision Day 79 (You can change)
- Battle of the Generation Appendix A (The Yetzer Hara In Our Brain (Addendum to Chapter 10))
- Perspectives on the Struggle
- Normalization
- Despair
- Shame
- Self Worth
Torah Sources
Zos Brisi
The Battle Can Be Won
Despite today’s challenges, a ben Torah must know that it is possible to remain pure and holy. As Chazal teach: “One who seeks to purify himself will be granted Heavenly assistance.”[1] Avos D’Rav Nosson[2] states that Hashem showed Adam HaRishon all future generations. Already at the time of Creation, the nisyonos of each generation and the way to overcome them were a reality. By overcoming our nisyonos, we perfect ourselves and all of creation and bring the world closer to its ultimate tikkun with the coming of Mashiach.
Chazal further teach that Hashem does not make excessive demands of us.[3] We are not given a nisayon that we cannot overcome. Hashem, the Source of all that is good, wants only to shower us with goodness, to help us succeed, to draw us close to Him. Any challenge that He presents to us is for our benefit, so that we may grow from our experience and climb the ladder of spiritual ascent.
The Midrash[4] informs us that Hashem does not elevate someone to prominence until he is first tested. Avraham passed ten difficult tests; only then does the Torah say, “And Hashem blessed Avraham with everything.”[5] Yitzchak was tested harassment by Avimelech, King of Pelishtim; only then does it say, “ ... and in that year he reaped a hundredfold; thus Hashem blessed him.”[6] Yaakov overcame the tests of Eisav, Lavan and Dinah; only then does it say, “Hashem appeared to Yaakov again when he came to Padan Aram, and He blessed him.”[7]
And of course, Yosef was faced with the difficult test of being confronted by Potiphar’s wife. He languished in prison for twelve years but emerged as the leader of his land, the father of two Shevatim, and earned for himself the title of Yosef HaTzaddik. The Midrash concludes with the verse “Hashem tests the tzaddik.”[8]
Nisyonos, when successfully overcome, bring forth greatness.
[...]
The Gaon states[9] unequivocally that every person has within himself the ability to overcome that forbidden desire with which he struggles the most. As Hashem told Kayin, “Yet you can rule over it [i.e., the yetzer hara].”[[10] It is within our bechirah (free will) to overcome this challenge.
In fact, one’s tikkun hanefesh, fulfilling his unique mission on earth, lies specifically in overcoming that which is his greatest yetzer hara. Therefore, one should invest his greatest effort in overcoming that which he finds most difficult.
The Lubavitcher Rebbe
- "From my knowledge of such cases, the majority of boys, and a majority by far, overcome this problem when they know its seriousness and are guided accordingly. This is why they do not come to the doctor’s attention, while where restraint is removed it often becomes a medical problem" (The Lubavitcher Rebbe[11])
- ב"ה, כ"א שבט, תשט"ז ... במענה על מכתבו מי"ד שבט, והתחלתו אשר בושת פניו כסתו וכו'. הנה מובן ופשוט שהתכלית בזה צריכה להיות שינוי עיקרי בהנוגע לפועל, ובמה שכותב שישנם ענינים שאינו יכול להנצל מהם כו' הרי כיון שהבורא דורש זאת מאת כל אחד ואחד מבני ישראל, בודאי שעוד מקודם לזה ניתן לו הכחות הנדרשים למלאות הדרישה, והוא הדין בנדון דידי', אלא שכמו בכל הענינים אין לדרוש שתהי' השתנות מן הקצה אל הקצה בשעתא חדא וברגעא חדא, כי עבודת האדם היא מדרגא לדרגא וביגיעה מתאימה, ואזי מתקיימת הבטחת רז"ל, יגעת ומצאת. (חי"ב עמ' שז)
- במענה על מכתבו מיו"ד לחדש אייר, בו מבקש תיקון על וכו', ואופן איך להלחם נגד זה בעתיד, היאוש תוקף אותו וכו'. והנה מבואר בכמה מקומות אשר היאוש הוא אחד התחבולות והדרכים של היצר הרע להפיל את האדם ברשתו, ע"י ההסברה שכין שלא יהי' בידו לנצח היצה"ר, ח"ו, הרי אין תכלית ותועלת במלחמתו נגדו, ומובן שרעיון זה הוא אפיקורסות ר"ל היפך האמונה, אשר השי"ת הוא בוא כל העולם והאדם בכללו, ולית אתר פנוי' מני' ואמר לו בתורתו הק' בראתי יצה"ר בראתי לו תורה תבלין, אלא שכל האומר אין לי אלא תורה אפילו תורה אין לו, וכבר ידוע פסק רז"ל אשר ח"ו לא זכה, הרי ר"ל יכולה להעשות לו סם מיתה (יומא ע"ב ב), לכן מוכרחת התפלה לפני אדון כל שהיא בקשת צרכי האדם, והצלת נפשו עאכו"כ, וכדי שתהי' התפלה מקובלת, צריכה להיות בטהרה ובפירוש המלות עכ"פ, ומה טוב לעתים קרובות ותכופות בנתינת קודם [התפלה] איזה פרוטות לצדקה, וכדרז"ל עה"פ אני בצדק אחזה פניך, ויתנהג בכל הנ"ל ויאמר לאחר התפלה של שחרית בכל יום השיעור תהלים כפי שנחלק התהלים לימי החדש, וכשיעשה את כל זה - אף כי כמנהג ישראל צ"ל בלי נדר - אזי לאט לאט תקל עליו המלחמה ומעט מעט יגרש את היצה"ר מגבולו, ומהנכון הי' שילמוד בעל פה מהתחלת פרק מ"א בספר התניא עד התיבות כעומד לפני המלך (שם דף נ"ו ריש עמוד ב), כן הי' מהנכון שיבדוק התפילין שלו.
- במענה למכתבו מיום ב', בו כותב אודות מצבו, ושכאילו אינו יכול להתגבר עליו, והתוצאות מזה, איך שיצא למשך זמן מכותלי הישיבה ואח"כ חזר לשם, ונמצא במצב יאוש וכו'. ומובן ששתי תמיהות בדבר: א) מהו הפלא על המצב, לאחרי שהודיעונו חז"ל, עבר כ' שנה וכו'. ב) כיון שהובטחנו לפום גמלא שיחנא ושבלתי ידח ממנו נדח, הרי בודאי שאפשר להתגבר על כל מצב שאינו מתאים לציווי תורתנו תורת חיים.
From the GYE Handbook
Learning to love Hashem through this struggle
No matter how much we have fallen, we must never view ourselves as “despised” by Hashem or imagine that Hashem is annoyed and frustrated with us. Instead, as we learn to give over our will to Hashem we will begin to feel that Hashem is truly our closest and most eternal friend.
As we progress and mature, we begin to view our relationship with Hashem on a much more intimate level. We begin to perceive how the lust is trying to get in between “us and Hashem” and interfere with the greatest love that can possibly exist!
Dealing with thoughts and fantasies
Everyone has these fantasies. Some people more, some people less. We are human beings and not angels. Hakadosh Baruch Hu created the world in such a way that men and women are attracted to one another and, because of this, people get married, have children and populate the Earth. If it bothers you that you struggle with these thoughts, that is already something to be proud of. If we get down on ourselves about fantasies, we become sad, and the sadness brings even more fantasies, and this becomes a vicious cycle that is difficult to break away from. However, the moment we start to look at ourselves in a positive light, we will see that the fantasies will come much less often.
The Ba’al Hatanya (Chapter 27, abridged) writes about those who subdue these bad thoughts:
The Zohar (p.128) extols the great satisfaction before Hashem when the sitra achra (the other side) is subdued here below. For then the glory of Hakadosh Baruch Hu rises above all, even more than is possible through any praise, and this ascent is greater than all else. Therefore, no person should feel depressed, even should he be engaged all his days in this conflict, for perhaps because of this he was created, and this is his service -- to constantly subjugate the sitra achra.
Don’t dwell on the past
Although the spiritual damage we cause by acting out is very great, we must accept that Hashem brought us into this situation and that it is not all our fault. Let us never dwell on how it happened, or on past falls. This will cause us to feel down and lead to future falls. The Chidushei Harim (in Likutei Yehudah) tells his followers never to look back, claiming that if we look back, we remain in the mud. Everyone has dirty laundry. We don’t have to be ashamed of our laundry, unless we let it pile up and never clean it.
We must also realize that we didn’t always have free will in the past. This is clear from various Sefarim and in various places in Chazal. To quote one of the foremost baalei mussar of our times, Rav Shlomo Wolbe, [zt"l]:
The great [Jewish] philosophers established bechira as the cornerstone for the whole Torah.... But from this resulted a common misperception among the masses; that all people actively choose their every act and every decision. This is a grievous error. (Alei Schur, Vol. 1, p. 156)
What, then, is bechira? To answer this question, Rav Wolbe refers us to Rav Eliyahu Dessler's "phenomenal essay on bechira” (Michtav MeEliyahu, Vol. 1, pp. 111-116). In this essay, Rav Dessler describes how the “nekudas habechirah – the point of free choice” is different for different people and in different situations. He explains that bechira is not a theoretical concept that can be applied to any circumstance where a person can hypothetically choose between two options. Rather, it only applies to moral conflicts where the two opposing forces are of approximately equal strength, the person is aware of the internal conflict, and he makes a conscious decision in one direction. When a person does something over which he does not experience conscious conflict, or if the compelling force on one side is significantly stronger than the other, the fact that he is theoretically able to decide either way does not qualify his act as an expression of bechira.
“Ain Hakadosh Baruch Hu ba beterunya im habriyos – Hashem doesn’t come with complaints to his creations.” As the Pasuk says: “He created together all their hearts and understands all their deeds,” and he knows that almost all men stumble in this sin at some point in their youth.
There’s a well known adage that if Hashem gave us a test, we must have the ability to overcome it as well. R’ Tzadok HaKoehn says though, (in Tzidkas Hatzadik) that this is not as simple as it sounds. It is true that we all have free choice to do what Hashem expects of us in this world, over the course of our lifetimes. However, in the process of our journey, there are many times when a person is considered an onus.
After the sin of the golden calf, the Midrash says that Moshe said to Hashem, if a father gave his son gold and sat him down on the doorstep of a Beis Zonos – “ma ya’aseh haben velo yecheta? - What can the son do and not sin?” In other words, we find in Chazal that there are times when a person may not have full Bechira.
See also the Rambam Hilchos Issurei Biyah 1:8 – “for the Yetzer and human nature forced her to want,” and see Tosofos in Sanhedrin 26b where they discuss how someone suspected of illicit relations may still be a Kosher witness, since it could be that his desires simply overpowered him. And see the Gemara in Brachos, 32b: “Asher Hari’osi” where Hakadosh Baruch Hu acknowledges to Eliyahu Hanavi that He was the one who had turned the Yidden’s heart away from him.
The Steipler too, in regards to a specific behavior that someone had difficulty controlling, writes: “He is not a Ba’al Bechira now in this area, and the only thing he can (and should) do, are Tikkunim that will help him over time.”
Once we understand that we didn’t always have free will in the past, we will prevent the guilt from dragging us down into a vicious cycle of despair and continued falls. And guilt can be even more dangerous than the falls. As they say: "It's not the one cookie you ate that broke the diet. The diet ended when you felt bad about that one cookie, and then went on to finish the entire BOX!”
And even if we may have had some freedom of choice at the time we fell, it could be that we had very little. The sins we did are only judged according to the circumstances and the level of free will that we had at the time. Only Hashem knows if we could have done better or not.
But when we talk about the present moment, we can never know how much free will we have and we must always try our very best.
Guilt vs. Shame
It is important to understand the difference between charata: healthy guilt & regret, as opposed to yiush: shame & despair.
To quote Rabbi Avraham J. Twerski:
We generally use the words “shame” and guilt” interchangeably. One may say, “I am ashamed of what I did”, meaning “I feel guilty over what I did.” Technically, however, the two terms are different. Guilt is about what a person did, and it can be a constructive feeling in that it can lead one to Teshuvah, to take corrective action. Shame, however, is what one feels he is. In other words, guilt is “I made a mistake”, whereas shame is “I am a mistake”. If one feels that he is inherently flawed, that he is made of “bad stuff”, there is nothing he can do to change that. With guilt there is hope of improvement, but not with shame.
Every person should feel he is a child of Hashem with a holy Neshama. Hashem doesn’t make defective goods. There is never room for despair or shame. However, healthy “guilt” is important. As the Nesivos Shalom writes in Parshas Noach, the guilty feelings we have are a gift from Hashem that come from the inherent good inside every Jew. Indeed, he writes, a Jew who does not have these feelings anymore, no longer has much hope.
A person who gives in to the Yetzer Hara only because the Yetzer hara has tempted him strongly and he can't hold back, is still not "bad' in essence. With sincere Teshuvah, Hashem will forgive him. But if one doesn't feel guilt anymore, that means that the bad has taken him over totally and there is little hope.
The Nesivos Shalom ends by saying that “guilt” is actually a Tikkun for every Jew to be able to break free of the bad. Even when one falls, they should make sure that the fall does not become part of their essence. By continuing to hold on to Hashem and feeling guilty when we are far from Him, then even in the case of the worst sins chas veshalom, we still have hope and will be forgiven.
There’s a simple test we can do to know whether we are being motivated by healthy guilt/regret or by shame/despair. If we see that we want to get right back up and find ways to strengthen ourselves again, then it’s a sign that our “bad” feelings are those of healthy guilt and positive regret. If, however, we feel that we just want to give up, then it’s a sure sign that we are experiencing despair and shame, and we must quickly find a way out of these harmful feelings before they lead us to a vicious cycle of continued falls.
From GYE Members
Thank You GYE! Thank G-d, this past week I completed the GYE 90-day journey. It's been an interesting process and before I share some of what's worked for me I'd like to take this opportunity to thank each and every one of you. Whether you realize it or not, you've all played a part in my success. Just knowing that this place exists, that despite the fact that the prevailing world view is that this behavior is acceptable - 'normal' even - and that despite the addiction and all that it entails, there are people who out of their extreme devotion to Hashem are fighting tooth and nail to break free and overcome this crippling illness, provides me with huge chizuk. Before I visited this website, I had almost deluded myself into thinking that "it's not so bad... I'm single, how could G-d possibly expect me to NOT do this?". I had virtually given up or given in. GYE was the slap in the face I so badly needed. So thank you! #Haleivi76
To start I want to point out a few things that will give you a clearer perspective on these issues and some chizuk for going to the next level.
1) Hashem created desire. Not you. He gave it to us as a test, a charge to win our battles and reach greatness. Pretty much any desire you experience is normal. Everyone gets it and must fight through it. Never blame yourself for your impulses. All that matters is what you do with them.
2) Hashem wants to provide man with the opportunity to win his battles and truly accomplish. Challenges are only there to make us great! Succeeding despite the difficulty is the point of life! The harder it is, the greater it makes us.
3) We should not be harder on ourselves than our loving Father Who made the rules. If we mess up, we should give ourselves a pat on the back for working so hard and then plan how to get back on the right track. Then we should regret our mistake, do teshuva to clean it up, and move on. No matter what happens, we must remember that although our battles are tough they are also opportunities to succeed and reach greatness.
4) We must never forget that Hashem loves us despite our sins. No matter how badly we fall, Hashem still cares about us. He never gets angry with us, no matter how badly we sin.
5) When we stumble, we must remember that we sinned out of weakness, not rebellion. We might sometimes be overpowered by strong desires, but deep down, we want to be good. There will be times when we make mistakes. That is normal, because we are human. We must also be sure that our sins don’t destroy us by making us feel ashamed of ourselves. Instead, we must get back up, dust ourselves off, and continue to chase our aspirations.
6) A plan involving gradual change often is the best way to attain self-control. A person should start by focusing on one area of his battle against desire. He should firmly commit himself to keep a certain halacha or aspect of self-control. Alternatively, he can decide to exert self-control in one particular common situation.
7) It is important to stay motivated. One way to do this is to celebrate your successes. Take small steps toward change, and celebrate each time you get it right. Also, spend time thinking about the emotions you felt when you decided to change. Think about what you want to change, and exactly how you want to act when you face particular challenges. Then close your eyes and visualize yourself making those choices.
8) No matter how strong we become, we still need to work daily to stay alert and ready for the yetzer hara, who can strike at any moment. If we are unprepared, our feelings will instantly change, and we might even desire what we thought we would have no interest in. We cannot know exactly how the yetzer hara will make us feel. We must be ready so this does not happen.
9) When we are caught off guard, we instantly change and our battle against desire intensifies. But if we catch ourselves and remember ideas that grant us clarity, we can overcome this incredible challenge and achieve some of the greatest successes ever.
10) The yetzer hara is our biggest enemy. He works within our heads to destroy us before the battle even begins. By learning how to defuse his arguments, we will deal him a crushing blow in the most challenging and encompassing battle of all!
GYE Boosts
- EVERYTHING IS CHANGING - YOU CAN TOO! The break of habits that the Coronavirus has brought is a G-d given opportunity to change the habits we've been trying to change for years! by Rabbi Manis Friedman
- The Yetzer Hara is not Unconquerable Rabbi Avi Wiesenfeld shows us how the Torah knows what we can and cannot do.
References
- [Big index: Self-Efficacy]
- [Internal Document] Stages of Change (The Transtheoretical Model) > Markers of Change > Self Efficacy and Temptation.
- Article on Wikipedia